Sorry to hear about your friend Sattolite, please stop beating yourself up over it. The problem with death, is that survivors make it about them, which turns it into guilt and drama and grief, when it should be a celebration of that person's life.

My husband died a week ago, it is hard to move on, but you have to. I do cry, bitterly, for myself and my daughter, but not for Chris, because he is no longer suffering.