oreocookis wrote:
^Thats what I was looking for and with talking to the owner the ad was old and I really was interested in her older mare. I thought going down from 2 to one is what I can handle and I knew it was possible but I just chose the wrong way to approach it. I regret even looking. I have low self esteem and making a stupid mistake like I did, was not something I normally do. I guess I felt after reading all of the comments that why would I stick around if Im such a bad horse person. Sure I will learn. But everyone thinks Im stupid now( have thought that all along). Its going to take alot to build up that trust again from you all.


I do not think your stupid.
I think you're poorly playing the pitty card.  
You clear posted you were looking at the filly, not the mare.

I think that you are a kind and sensitive young woman.
I think that right now you are going through a really tough time.

Look at me for a minute.
I wanted Boogie driving so badly, I couldn't see the issues he is having.
I am very selective about what I post on Fish.
But after Aramsamsam came out and interacted with my horse I could no longer be blinded to it.
I did something I never do anymore.
I posted videos and pictures that showed myself and my horse in a bad light because,
Not only do I need to fix the problem, I need to understand it.
Did the thread make me cry. Did I want to scream and yell at everyone, yes. (And I did a little.)
But I was more angry at myself for not seeing what they saw, than I was about what they said.
No one wants to be made to look a fool.  
I certainly don't ever want to make someone look like a fool.

People here have been kind to you, which is not normal FiSH behavior, because we call can see your heart.
Instead of taking at as an attack, take it as heart felt advice, because that is what it is.

Most of us posting in this thread have been where you are. We understand the emotional hole you are feeling.
We are sharing with you what we learned from it, so that you don't make the same mistakes.

Being stupid and doing something stupid are two very different things.