So sorry for your loss.

I know what you're going through, believe me. I lost my Starlite a couple weeks ago (she was fine the night before, and apparently just laid down and died some time during the night or early morning) and vacillate between wanting another horse *right now* even though I don't really have the time, and just having my other horse PTS (he's not ill apart from being unridable due to EPM so I could never sell him or foist him on anyone else) and never looking at another horse again... and everything in between. :/