Why would it even matter? The OP hasn't so much argued against good advice as appeared to be in denial about the seriousness of the problem and their ability to handle it. The OP needs a trainer or at the very least some experienced outside help. Not something one generally wants to hear, and of course it would be awesome of there was some "magic fix" that could be read about on the internet, but this is not the case. If the OP is an alter, so what? In the past I've posted some of my more embarrassing problems (not horse training problems, but still) under an alter. FiSH can be harsh and the horse world is small.