Ok yeah, now that it isn't 4 am with no sleep, what I wrote doesn't sound all that great. The anger issue was definitely getting the better of me. Thanks for pointing it out to me Quantum. Yes I do think that I intimidate him to some degree. I did say that line to him about being smarter than everyone else after he broke up with me, not the smartest thing to do. We were able to have some very intelligent conversations and I never felt like he wasn't smart enough for me. What I meant to say about his job that he would always have work. The way jobs are disappearing nowadays is frightening, but a good mechanic is always going to be needed. Also my father was a mechanic for quite a few years so it's a job I respect. I never had any problems with his language skills and was actually looking forward to him teaching me some of his native language.
I do love him, and I was having serious thoughts about growing old with him. He was someone that I would have been happy to wake up to every day for the rest of my life. We complimented each other well and made each other very happy. But now it's not going to be that way. I just don't know how I'm going to recover from losing everything that I cared about in life at once.