Well, I know that Chancie will never be better than she is- it will only go downhill from this point. She's old, has heart problems, has leg and joint problems, is going blind... There is no recovery or improvement, except maybe pain meds to manage her discomfort. I guess in a way that helps with the decision.

I called, and we're going tomorrow at 9am.. But they said they don't do the sedation beforehand- is that bad? Should she be sedated beforehand? And I'm afraid they'll put her in a bag or something when she's gone so the other patients don't see her... I don't want my Chancie in a bag.. I want to wrap her up in her blankie and take her home to bury her. Can I tell them not to put her in a bag?

Jason's acting like I'm the most awful person in the world for making the appt... I wish I'd made it for today, I can't handle thinking about it... I can't even look at her.


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