Sigh...I put Kit down just an hour ago. It wasn't as bad as I thought. He started dragging his hing legs and with the "toe flip" test, he would correct them....so that means it's becoming nuerological. I tell you, seeing him like that made the decision so easy. I took him in asap and the vet checked and confirmed the nuero and jaundice was starting. I did really well actually. Yeah, I cried...that's not embarassing at all! But I was able to contain myself so as not to blubber long enough to ask questions and get answers. He purred until his last breathe (before anestiesia put him out, then I left the room for the 2nd shot). They said he could twitch or become vocal at the second shot and that he wouldn't know I was in the room anyways...so I opted to leave. Only $30, I was shocked...thought it would be more.

I brought him home, let the 2 dogs and his brother Kat say goodbye. My dad came over and dug the hole out by my deck and I layed him in. It's over now. The pain for both of us is over. Maybe I can actually eat again?

Well the point of telling you this is not to make you sad and not for pitty. But to hopefully make you see it's not so bad. I miss him, but honestly he hasn't been himself in 3 weeks. So I've been missing him for a while. Just think back on how your Chance used to be and how she is now. It's bittersweet really. You have the opporunity to provide her a peaceful end...that's truly a gift compared to some animals.