The point to my post on page 4 was that- I made the mistake of waiting too long, of trying to let medical science fix things for me, of letting another person's denial and grief allow a beloved animal to suffer.

All of the things you are wrestling with- I did. I was wrong. It was wrong. I do not want to eek out a few mo months on the planet surviving on tubes and pills, and I will not do that to another animal.

You know you are on the right path. Don't let his inability to be as strong as you are sway you. (I know you won't, but can't hurt to say it.)

I also agree with the closure for the other non-human family members.