Thanks guys all this helps...knowing I am not alone:-) I feel crappy and don't know what to believe about the horse. She is home and happy to be there. I am going to chill a bit and do some thinking. I have what I have, I am not made of money and there will be no buying or selling of expensive horses. I scrape like hell to pay for weekly lessons and my parents help pay for shows. You can't squeeze blood from a turnip:-) I do the best with what I have and feel I am pretty lucky to have that. I do realize people are in it to make money, but no one ever figures out that by not being nice to me, I will not be giving them money!