Hon, this is NOT your fault. Whether you are pretty and brighteyed and fresh or whether you are tired and pudgy and haven't showered in a week, that's no excuse for his behavior. Reading your follow-up posts tells me you need to leave. If it's 1000 miles away and he wanted you back, he'd come get you. If he decides its not worth the effort, he wouldn't walk around the block to get you back. Don't think that by moving 1000 miles away, you are losing any chance of getting back together. You're not. You're losing the chance of him wandering back in when it's convenient to him and then leaving again, but do you want to do that or find out once and for all where you stand?

And I agree, he needs to support his child. Get the paperwork in place for child support and go move in with your friend for awhile. You need to get away, you need a change of pace, and he needs a wakeup call. If he doesn't come get you, then he didn't want you back very badly.

*hugs*

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