I don't want to give advice on what to do because I feel like, I don't know, I guess that this is too big a deal and over my head and I don't want to give you bad advice? I will say though that I really am sorry you're going through this. If nothing else, writing it out on here and getting positive support will give you a little boost, so do it any time you need. We are a snarky, odd bunch for sure, but we'll be here for support 24/7. Stay strong. Also, your baby is adorable. What is her name?