Thanks again guys.

We had a long talk on Monday and things started to turn. He was leaving at a reasonable time for work, spending 8 hours and coming home. I was cooking dinner for him, doing his laundry, he was helping out with the baby and kept in contact with me while he was gone. We had dinner out one night and were even sleeping in the same bed (a rarity since someone always sleeps in the other room with the baby so the other can sleep on their night off).

He promised to take me to work this evening to spend some time together. That was earlier this week. Guess he forgot because he left without mentioning it, and I didn't say a thing hoping that he'd remember or bring it up. So he was supposed to come home tonight and not have to work until Saturday afternoon. I just got a text mentioning that he was asked to work Saturday (optional) morning so he won't be home tonight, tomorrow, tomorrow night and still gone until Sunday afternoon. I told him I was selling 2 of my bridles and will have $60 by Monday. I'll pay him OVER the same amount he'd get if he worked Saturday morning if he didn't do it and just stayed home. I just offered to pay him for his time here. I just offered to match him $50 and then raise it another $10 if he just came home tonight and didn't leave until his evening shift.

So, he'll be gaining $10 if he doesn't do this optional work. He's still doing it though.

I think I'm throwing in the towel. I'm not ready to do much right now but give up, but I'm pretty sure that by next week I'll end up blowing again, throwing him out, and then be blamed by my whole family that I just kicked out a good guy who only wanted to work and produce money for his family.

Oh well. Thanks for your ongoing support. I'm sorry I made you guys worry but I was working extra hard to clean house, take care of baby, spiff myself up and just work harder at the relationship. I'm sorry if I don't respond to this for a while, and I'm sorry if I don't return messages. I really don't mean to be a bitch, but I just feel kind of numb now and I kind of want to stay that way for a few more days.



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"And so I will be as if all the stars were laughing when you look at the night sky"
"The most dangerous place in the world is to be between a mother and her child"
"Yeah, a little too Raph"
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